Last Day

Every story has an end. But in life, every ending is just a new beginning. 

Time flies so fast that we haven't noticed it's already been the 365th day today. 

All throughout the year, I thank God for giving me the chance to fulfill my dream and to experience life alone. 2015 gave me all the adventures I could ever asked for.  But, it's time to say goodbye.. :( 

2015. This year, God has given me a wonderful experience which I never expected to come. Thank you Oh God for giving such a blessing and thank you for making me believe that dreams do come true. I have so much in mind right now that I can't think anymore what to write. All I know is Thank you and to all the people I have hurt, please forgive me. To all the people I made a promise yet until now I wasn't able to fulfill it, please forgive me as well. I'll be able to give what you deserved soon. To my mama and papa, you both are great blessings God could ever give. I really really thank Him for giving you as my ma and pa.

Mama, I'm sorry for the past years that I have given you so many heartaches and burdens. I'm sorry for being such a hard headed human but I want you to know that I love you so much and that thank you for supporting me all the way. Being away from you is always been hard for you, I know that. But sometimes ma, It's for the good of everybody. It's not that I will be away forever. Just don't miss me too much because you know how much I am emotionally vulnerable each time I see you cry. Papa my everdearest. They know how much I am such a papa's gurl. It can't be hide. I remember the time when you first knew that I will be leaving home soon, you gave all your best to convince me that it was fake, Heheh. But until such time, maybe God made a way to let you realize that It wasn't, and that you are not dreaming, you supported me even if it will hurt you if I go away. Thank you Pang for everything.  I love you Both! 

To my Only Love Let destiny find its way for us to be together. I never expected anything but you came and accepted me for who I am. We may not be able to hold each other today, but I want you to know that you have my back. I support you in everything you wanna do. Take time, have fun and hoping to see you soon. 

 

to my new family here in KSA, Female Ward, my start has never been easy for you and for me. I have things that only I understand and sometimes, you tend to misunderstood. But as time goes by, I saw myself being with you as my family and friends. We all are away from our families and we were the only one who could defend, love and care for each other. Thank you for being mean, caring, bully, loving and most especially protecting me for everything. I am blessed that I came to this place and have met all of you. We still have a lot to learn about each other and hoping for the great friendship in the future.

 Ate Tin, my roommate and who served as my elder sister. Ate tin, more blessings and life to come for both of us. I remember the first time I came here and you were always there waiting for me to stop crying and offer me food even if we really don't have food to eat. And I hope, sabay tayong aalis.  More joys and laughter ahead of us!  More chickas and spending special occasions together, hehe. Kawawa naman tayo. Thank you for taking care of me always. ^_^

For Everyone We don't get a chance to do that many things, and everyone should be really excellent. Because this is our life. Life is brief and then you die, you know? So, it better be damn good. It better be worth it. And as I always say, if you let fear rules your life, you'll never have the chance to do the things to want to do. So don't be afraid to take a leap of faith. Coz until you spread your wings, you will have no idea how far you can fly. 

2016. Here I come! Please bring happiness and joy to our lives, Please be good to us. Make our everyday, beautiful. :) 

Regards,

Bujun

A Toxic Verbal Environment

Like I said on my previous articles, living on the different side of the earth is fairly amusing. But having a job is quite different. Pretty much outlandish.

I started working here as a military nurse, nine months ago. And within those months, I have experience and witnessed utterly a lot of good and bad things being on it..

Of course, aside from considering the fact that you are just an expat, you must obey all the laws and must be very careful on everything you do. You must have to adapt their culture and language as fast as you can for you to be able to continue to function and prosper. Most especially when you are working as a Nurse.

But one thing bothers me most. It's how some of these people treat nurses unprofessionally. They are literally verbally abusive. 

But first let me define you what a nurse is. 

nurse¹

nəːs/

noun

noun: nurse; plural noun: nurses

1.

a person trained to care for the sick or infirm, especially in a hospital.

"a team of doctors and nurses"

All we do is take care of sick people but what have we gotten? 

I know, I don't have the right to complain but we nurses have opportunities that are rare in other professions. The benefits which we received are not easily measured not are they limited to our paychecks and employers benefit packages.

But isn't just unfair how you treat us? When you speak, you speak awfully as if you are talking to an uneducated person. We are also humans. You say we are not doing our job, you keep on ordering and demanding precisely a lot of things, always telling nurses that we are wrong, you refused to talk and acknowledge us. you are judging and criticizing and makes us erode our confidence and many many more things.

This job isn't as easy and distressful as you may think. You truly have no idea what nurses do. 

 But I don't want to stereotype. There are still those people who appreciate nurses. Those were the kind of people who truly knows a nurse job. And sometimes when seeing a nurse is on too much stress, some will give refreshments to lighten up the burden. (I love those kind of people. It makes me smile whenever I remember some of them. ) And of course, a single thank you is enough to embrace the stress with joy and laughter. 

Stick and stones may break my bones but words can also hurt. Stick and stones break only skin while words are ghost that haunts. Pain from words has left its scar on mind and heart that's tender. Cuts and bruises are getting healed its words that I remember.

In the future, I wonder if all nurses could withstand these kind of mistreatment. Well I guess, I just hope and pray that God will make a way.

Hello Cold Days!

Yeah. I probably have  the most superficial happiness in the world. For 25 years, I lived on a tropical country and being away from it and living on a different side of the earth, is quiet amusing. 

Please forgive me but I can't help but be delighted on this wonderful season here in Saudi Arabia. Even before, I know for the fact that this country has only two seasons. The scorching heat  of Summer and the naked trees and frosted leaves of Winter.  

The walk in the cold winter day seemed brisk and refreshing as the shivering powdery ice-cold breeze gently kissed my cheeks and frozed. Here and there were squares of warm yellow light where perhaps families enjoyed hot cups of cocoa as they watched movies or gazed into the flickering flames of the fireplace. I walked on. The wind tossed with more force against my face, but it didn't deter me. Within a few minutes, the playful, frisky wind turned into a snarling beast hurling tiny pellets of pain at my stinging cheeks. I turned for home. The coat, hat and gloves that had seemed so warm when I had left home now gave no resistance to the roaring beast seeking to kill me with breath of wind and ice. My numbing feet slipped and slide on the treacherous pellets mounting a sidewalk attack. Excitement mixed with fear propelled me on towards home. Home where I could shut the door on the howling beast of winter. 

 But you know what's the best thing in Winter? Its when you're with your family and friends. 

These kind of people would make your winter enjoyable and unforgettable. 

HAVE A NICE COLD DAYS EVERYONE! ^_^

Dreams do Come True: A Story of Success with Shiela May De Lara

Sometimes, when we want something especially when we want it bad enough, it's a natural thing that we do everything just to achieved it. But most of the time when we don't get it, we tend to feel like the world is unfair and then we gravitate to lose our deepest hope. 

But we never realized that some things are not meant to be. That sometimes, some prayers are not yet ready to be answered. And that everything has its perfect time and to always, always never give up on dreams. 

Just like this one friend of mine. She's one great example that dreams do come true. 

That you should never have to lose your faith, for your dream. And it was her American dream. The dream that she have waited long enough to become a reality. 

And at last, after a long time of her wishful thinking, she embraced her approved immigrant visa with open arms and a wave of joy and laughter. 

And now, she can finally say "Aloha!"

Ate Shei,

When I first met you I never thought you'd have a special place in my life. You've been unexpectedly good, caring and truly an amazing friend and at the same time an ate that I will surely treasure and will be missed for lifetime. Even though we just became friends for a short period of time, (8months) at least I can say I am proud to be your friend. 

As what people say, you hardly find true friends here abroad. And I am pleased to say that You're one of the greatest true people I have ever met. Thank you ate for the motivation, friendship and love. 

You're indeed a great ate to me and I know and absolutely happy knowing that your dream of being with the one you love is finally coming true. I hope and pray that we will still see each other someday. 

Thank you for being you and for making me smile when I'm on deep thoughts. I will missed your smile, your simply being you. And I want you to know that you maybe out of my sight but never out of my mind. You know, goodbyes are not forever. Goodbyes are not the end. They simply means I'll miss you and until we meet again. 

You're one heck coolest people I have ever met and May GOD bless you and protect you wherever your destiny takes you. Always pray and always keep the faith. 

Love you ate Shei and I will miss you..soo much. :) Take this as my goodbye letter because I dunno If I can still able to tell it to you personally most especially with the maasalama.. 

THANK YOU ate Sheila and GOD BLESS YOU! 

Yours Truly,

Bujun