A Letter To God

Today, marks a quiet but powerful milestone in my life: I finally finished reading the Old Testament. 

For the past six months, I walked through it day by day, sometimes only a chapter, sometimes a few, until, at last, I reached the final page. And as simple as that sounds, it feels anything but small. It feels sacred.

Dear Lord God, 

Thank You, for the desire You placed in my heart, for the strength You gave me on days I felt tired, and for the Spirit that carried me through every page. Through every chapter, I came to know You more deeply. I saw how endless Your mercy is. How immeasurable Your love is, not just for the faithful, but for humanity as a whole.

Through Your Word, I learned who You are. I learned Your ways, Your statues, Your commandments. I get to know Your rage and Your justice, Your disciple and Your forgiveness. I get to know how time and time again, people turned away from You, made the same mistakes, broke the same promises, grieved Your heart over and over again. And yet...You still called them back.

"Turn to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning."

-Joel 2:12

And every time, they were forgiven.

And somewhere along those pages, You began refining me. Quietly. Gently. Sometimes, painfully. You reshaped my heart into something stronger, something more honest. Even now, I am still in awe of the transformation You have done in my life.

There were days during this journey when I felt overwhelmed by emotions. I couldn't explain. I faced challenges, troubles, and inner battles I never expected. In my prayers, I asked You to let me walk the righteous path because I wanted, truly wanted, to follow You. But instead of peace, I felt pulled into seasons of sadness, anger, disappointment, and confusion.

I questioned You. I questioned myself. I didn't understand. 

But now I see it, You allowed it because You were preparing me.

When I look back, I realize I am stronger than I've ever been. My faith in You has grown beyond measure. You taught my heart how to endure, how to stand firm, how to trust even when nothing made sense. You made me confident not in myself, but in You. And somehow, through it all, You made me love You even more. 

Lord, my deepest desire is to be in Your kingdom someday.

Thank You for giving me the chance to read the Bible while I am still alive. 

What an honor. What a gift to be among those who get to know Your story, Your heart, Your truth, And this is not the end. I still have a long journey ahead of me. 

I still have the New Testament waiting.

Thank You for the gift of life.

Thank You for bringing me into this world.

Thank You for allowing me to experience Your creation.

And most of all Lord, thank You for giving me the chance to know You.

I love you with all my heart.

With love, 

Junalie