To The Woman Who Never Left

"'Cause when we were together

It made the dream come true.

If I had only one friend left

I'd want it to be you." 

-One Friend, Dan Seals

11 years ago, we didn't know we were already so called "bestfriends". It just suddenly came out through our classmates since whenever neither I nor she was absent during classes, we were always asked about each other's whereabouts. Anyways, I find it amusing and never even thought it was the best thing that ever happened. :)

But did you know were quite the opposite? I actually now believe that opposites do really attract. I was the outspoken one while she was the silent type. I love talking and she loves to listen. 

Yet sometimes be careful when she says nothing. She will hear your side first, that's for sure. But if it's her turn to talk, just shut your mouth and listen up if you don't wanna leave being speechless. :) 

I think, best friends have the same characteristics. They just have the best understanding of their differences. Sa? 

Her name is Joanna Crave Decrepito. 

She showed me nothing but the best and also deserved to have my best. 

She's my troubleshooter. My human diary. My person. My best friend. My bdai. 

Friends do come and go,

but she was the only person who stayed and never left.

And I thank God for that.

She's the smartest person I have ever met yet the dullest when it comes to love. (Truth. She even confirms that, trust me) 

Bdai, today is a special day. I wanna say I don't think I have ever connected with another human the way I have with you. When I am with you, I am who I am. I was never afraid to show the real me because you were always and will always be there who never and will never judged. You make things okay. No one else can do that for me, but you.

If nothing else, I hope you know that I love you with every ounce of my being. I hope you realize your importance not only to me but to everyone who has been lucky enough to know you. I hope you know that when you're feeling down, I only ever strive for your happiness. I hope you remember that no matter what, I'm here for you and I fully intend on staying in your life for quite sometime. I hope you recognize the fact that I appreciate and adore you without restraints, and that this will never ever changed. 

I love you! 

Happy 2*th Birthday!

 God bless you more and more each day Bdai 

coz you really deserve all the good things in the world. 

MORE ADVENTURES WITH YOU! :*

Be patient. God's just busy writing your best love story. 

These Broken Hands of Mine

I feel like an empty soul.
Please save me from this abyss of emptiness.

It was just a sudden thing. I always feel the same thing as this even before but today was different. I can no longer think properly. I even told someone I was depressed. They said, change your mindset and everything will fall into places. Indeed. But the difference is that my mindset was too low. So low like super down below sea level. Ive been praying a lot these days. Is this kind of feeling still healthy? Isn't it?

Its been a year and a half now since Ive been away from home. Though, I went for vacation for like 6 weeks and spent time most of my days with family, friends and of course my baby (not literally a child, if you know what I mean.)

Whats wrong with me? I feel so empty.

I am lost.

Advices please.