Let it All Out

You're mad? Then get mad! Don't keep it all inside. LET IT ALL OUT!

I always have this bad habit of keeping feelings suppressed and kept locked inside of me. Believe me I was never like this before. Unlike previously, I was the kind of person who makes people pique because of being so blabby and straightforward, enough for them to hate me so much because I was too frank and I say everything what's inside my mind whether it was good or bad. Some would say I am too brutally honest or I have no control or I make things complicated. Everyone was scared to pissed me. But trust me, expletives were never part of it. I kinda missed it sometime though, nonetheless I am totally a different person now. Probably except if I am too stressed or my migraine visits sometimes, i am possessed by the old me. 

Distinctively, I am a crybaby. I became an extremely sensitive person. I didn't know how and why it happened. It just happened. Unlike now, I easily get offended. I exasperate people because of being hypersensitive. I would be very hypocrite if I say don't keep it all inside, let it all out. 

But If you feel like crying, just cry like you've never cried before. If it'll make you feel good, if it'll lighten your heavy wounded heart or if you have carried a way too long resentment, then cry. Just cry your heart out till you cry no more. 

We've all hit that point of exhaustion. The point where nothing makes sense anymore. Your body hurts, your brain becomes foggy, and you feel like you're trapped in a tunnel. When all you want, is to cry. 

But tell me how do you keep going? How do you not just sit down and give up? Sometimes it's easy. Sometimes you play games in your head. You make up someone. Someone good. Whatever you need. To keep you going.

It came to a point that I exploded. All the things being suppressed and kept for a very long time wasn't able to hold me anymore no matter how tight and strangled it was inside of me. It just happened. I just let it all out. I wasn't adept enough to grasp it anymore. I was slipping out. I shocked all the people around me. When I had enough, I was so terrified. That's why, don't. Don't keep it all inside. It is very important that you know this. 

Keeping all things inside won't make you a better you. Be you in a way where you open your heart and mind for a change.  It could be hard for the first time, it really is hard but Im pretty sure you can traverse. Like if you're mad, then get mad. Don't keep it inside. Let it all out.