Lucky Enough

I will love the light for it shows me the way,

 yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.

Wherever you go, go with all your heart.

He has been the kind of man a woman can ever dreamt of. Stable, kind, complicated, loving, dreamy, sophisticated and at such a very young age, he developed a good sense of humor and acquired the ability of a leader. 

I have known him for a decade now and still, he's the same man who loves to paint, who sings a song wholeheartedly even if he doesn't know the lyrics, who learned to play guitar because he was too competitive enough that he doesn't want the love of his life could play guitar better than him, overly head over heels of his work, passionate, very smart and willing to take the risk for his subordinates. He is a manager now of a very well known clothing brand. 

As years have passed, I witnessed how he bloomed from his style of fashion, from an obsolete style to the birth of the new era. The way he talks about life and love, the way he thinks, the way he handles everything. He was truly such a pride. My love for him could possibly be equal to the love of my family. We've known each other for such a very long time and the possibility that we could end up together was nearly possible. 

But the relationship we had was like my math grades. Fluctuating. Until it became stable, and then lost again and then came back again. Something that I cannot be proud of. Who would want to have a relationship like that? Investing things, feelings, effort and everything knowingly you haven't even met each other, since. Likewise, it wasn't firm enough to stay for a longer relationship. 

Knowing him is such a pride and I think indeed some things are meant to happen, just not meant to be. Some things are meant to come into your life, just not meant to stay. 

Ney, I now believe that everything happens for a reason. You came into my life to prepare me about something that you could also be proud of. I wanted to say I am truly sorry that this has come to an end. You have been my very best friend, the family I had when I was alone, my crying shoulder, my love and my soul mate. God knows how much I love you but I want you to know even if we wont be meeting each other anymore, you imprinted your soul inside of me. And that will stay as long as I live. I will forever understand if you won't be able to understand and in the long run, will hate me forever. 

Go live your life and I'm setting you free from being prisoned for such a long time. You deserved someone better than me. 

And to the lucky woman, you are truly lucky enough to have him. Please love him with all your heart, give him everything he deserves. I know you will. 

Farewell love. Thank you for everything.

Now signing off.